|Posted by D on May 07, 2003 at 13:38:57:|
I have an addiction to over the counter ephedrine. I feel that I used this to self-medicate for an ongoing problem that runs in my family. Shyness, anger outburts, depression,lack of energy, negative attitude,complaining, see the bad in all situations, not to mention many ADD symptoms which two of my children have been diagnosed for and are doing quite well with a small dosage of medication; uncompleted tasks, lack of attention, lack of focus, etc. So if I guess it right, I probably have some ADD & depression due to genetics. Well, this ephedrine did the trick for awhile and it was nice to let people see me for my qualities and creativity and it was nice not to be lazy or have a bad personality, etc. But after 10 years of this the dosage has increased and the side-effects of the medication have outweighted it high points. I want to go inpatient for treatment, but I don't want to go back to the way I was before I took the pills, I want help for the real problem. Is it wrong for me to just want to be normal and happy? Where can I get this kind of "real" help for my whole problem?